Facing My Fear

The past few months have been difficult for me. I don't know if my work has affected my relationship with Denver. He's been complaining that I am too stressed and too tired to take care of him and Ippo. Eventually, he stopped complaining, and when he stopped complaining, he also stopped being as affectionate. He's a very sweet person, and now I think I've turned him into someone cold.

There are still days when he is demonstrative. I'm just not used to those days when he won't hug me or hold my hand. Looking back, I don't blame him. Today I feel what he used to feel. I used to justify my reservations by saying I'm not huggy or mushy. I love him but I'm just not the type to be all over him.

After his birthday, he wrote me a letter saying that he felt our relationship was slipping because of the lack of time, effort and passion (I guess it was a lack from my end). That was over two months ago. He said he was scared that he may not be able to fix it.

My birthday is coming up. Sometimes, I feel that our relationship has slipped away. I let it happen. My lack of time, effort and passion has consumed our relationship. I can't believe I let it happen. I can't believe I didn't take his warning seriously.

How do you fix something you break unintentionally? I love him and I regret that I didn't exert as much as I should have to keep our relationship alive.

Although we are still together, things are just not the same anymore, and even if I am working on my flaws, I am scared that it might be too late. I don't know if it will ever be the same again.

Just Moved In

erI've been wanting to start a blog here for around a year now. Everybody else has migrated from blogs.friendster.com. I think its a bit more exciting to reveal intimate details when the world doesn't know so much about you. When I blog at friendster, I am still cautious. Now I can be free and foolish without having to worry too much.

My friendster blog: http://bebot168.blogs.friendster.com/