Kainez

Oh gosh, this is embarrassing.

Twice this month, I’ve been asked when I’m giving birth. The first time it happened, the area manager of Dimsum N Dumplings Cybermall said to me, “ma’am pregnant pala kayo, kala namin, chubby lang kayo.” I was with Denver when she said that. I just went along with it. Denver couldn’t get the smirk off his face.

Today, while waiting for the elevator, the security from the 29th floor asked me “ilang months pa yan ma’am?” I smiled and said, “hindi ako buntis, taba lang yan.” He was embarrassed, but believe me, I was in a more shameful situation. Grabe na to ha.

I’ve never been bigger. I am bigger now than when I gave birth. I am actually scared to go on the scale now. I can’t even find a regular store that has my size. I have to go to specialty stores, and I hate that because their clothes are expensive. I swear I just want to go to work in a track suit.

What have I done to myself? I am so not in the mood to go to the gym. Sometimes I wish I could have an eating disorder. Sometimes lang naman, like now.