Ambisyosa

Now I’m really interested in reading The Secret. I first learned about it through some stranger’s blog, and then Third mentioned it in his comment on Biggest Loser.

I’ve wanted to lose weight since giving birth to Ippo. (I know that’s a long time). I tried a few times, but gave up because I didn’t feel like I was making any progress. Looking back, I actually dropped from 186 lbs. to 155 lbs. but still felt so fat so I stopped dieting. Man, that’s 31 lbs. lost and I didn’t even give myself credit for it. This time I am dead serious about sticking to it.

My cousin’s getting married in June and I am a bridesmaid. The other bridesmaids already have their pretty green dresses. Sony asked me what I’m going to wear and I told her I won’t have a dress made until a month before her wedding. I hope I didn’t scare her. She wants to see the design and color first because she has very specific guidelines about the length and shade (and even our hair).

So, I’ve set an ambitious goal of losing 40 lbs. by June. I’ve taken Third’s advice and now I’m like thinking about my goal every waking minute. I’ve even dedicated my 2008 Starbucks Planner to this goal. I’ve filled the pages with the line “I will lose 40 lbs. by June.” Each day has a list of what I’ve eaten. I also note down physical activities I’ve performed. You must think I am so weird, but again, let me say that I am really serious. I want it so bad it scares me.

A colleague told me that losing 2 lbs. a week is sensible. Since starting my diet journal, I’ve monitored my weight loss, and I think I am on track. From 177 lbs. on New Year, 175 lbs. on January 5, now I am yo-yoing from 169 to 171. I know it’s not much but if I stick to it, I know I will lose 40 lbs!

I’ve completely eliminated rice for three weeks. I know I won’t be eating rice for a long time. Not even California Maki, one of my faves. I’ve managed to avoid ice cream, cake and chocolates. Uh-huh. Denver ate the chocolates I got for Christmas and I refused to order cake when Sony and I were at The Coffee Bean. I bought some olive oil last week (very unlike me because it’s a bit expensive). And today I asked my tita to buy fresh tuna from the market. I don’t like fish dishes at all. I can eat tuyo, danggit, Spanish sardines, canned tuna, sushi, sashimi or breaded fish fillet, but that's it. But because I want to lose 40 lbs., I am including fish in my regular diet. My tito offered to smother my tuna belly in butter because he knows I am sensitive to fish smell but I said no to butter and yes to olive oil. Naks.

So what do you think? Can I lose 40 lbs. by June?