Finding That Old Feeling

On my first week in XPS, my nose bled for five days. Literally and not figuratively. I’ve been “home sick.” I miss CBG, the 29th floor, my co-TLs, my bosses, and most of all, my own team.

AJ and I have been given a team. But were really just substitutes for the team’s TL and L2. JV transferred to Chat support, and so AJ and I are on loan to XPS (supposedly).

I’ve been feeling lonely on the floor ever since. The new team seems alright. They invited me and AJ to their Bulacan outing last Sunday. I thought it would be a nice idea to join so I could get to know them sooner, but I backed out at the last minute.

On Monday and Tuesday I didn’t go to work. My throat hurt, my head ached, my ass wanted to stay put. I was thinking all these silly thoughts like, would I survive if I turn in my resignation? Would I be dismissed if I didn’t show up at work for a week? I was plotting an escape yesterday. I had to leave the house because my mom would scold me if I missed another day at work, but I didn’t want to go to the office. Where should I go? Who could be my accomplice? I felt like an adolescent with this strong urge to cut class. I finally decided to get up. I gave myself a reason to go to work – Dementia.

I was already in Eastwood by seven (and should have been on the floor by then) but couldn’t bear the thought of being lonely at the 28th floor. I promised myself I would get a slice of Dementia if I go to work. And that’s exactly what I did.

I enjoyed this piece of heaven all by myself.

By the time I was done romancing my Dementia, I said to myself, no one from the office has seen me yet, I can still ditch work! How totally immature. But then I remembered my unpaid sofa, my bathroom door project, a new dining set that I want, my 30th birthday coming up, and 0.5 SIL credit. Off to work then. Logged in for 8:00 PM shift.

After my shift, I passed by the 29th floor pantry and saw half of my old team huddled over lunch and some chismis. Sana bukas ulit sabay sabay sila mag lunch, and AJ and I could hang out with them. The best feeling I had all day. It nearly tops the Dementia experience (wink).

lovely desserts at Kooky & Luscious