"About Me" says that I'm happy with my life now. This is not true at the moment. In fact this has not been true for weeks. This is, no doubt, due to the recent mess I've been caught in.
How long does this torment have to go on? I am so fucking sick of it. I want to forget about what happened but how the hell am I supposed to do that when the process of wanting to forget involves pondering over the damn thought? Am I even making sense?
Some days I want to die. No matter how much I want to move on, harmful thoughts creep in and drag me into my misery. I want to erase her sickening image from my memory but it pops up like an ugly zit that just won't go away.
I've contemplated on hiring someone to disfigure her face with acid. Not that there's much to destroy but it might be a joy to see her melting face. I often imagine her wailing in agony while the acid eats up her face. I'd like to watch it happen and I would make sure she keeps her vision so that she can look at her hideous face. A monstrous face that would perfectly match her already nauseating character.
Other days I just want to shove the thought because she is not worthy of my time and thoughts.
This whore should live long enough to suffer her karma. She has taken something from me that I may never get back. My faith.
I have not made any decisions yet. Right now I'm just pissed and confused.
I still want to look at the glass half-full. God help me.
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Sorry to hear about this. I just wish that all people, girls and boys, will be instilled with decency and faithfulness. They're the prerequisites of trust.
And what's with those women who love to take away guys that are taken when in fact, there are a lot of people there who are unattached?
Must be a nymphomaniac. She already has a boyfriend, remember? Anyway, I know it takes two to tango. I don't just blame her. My man obviously has a weak character. I just hope he's dead serious about changing.
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